daily journal 3-4-11

The first image that came into my mind was me and my family on the gulf of mexico.  If I found out I was going to die tomorrow, I would sell all of my belongings and donate the money to an animal shelter. The second thing I would do is rent a huge yacht and lay in the sun all day with my family.  The gulf of mexico is so beautiful, and that is what I would want my family to remember about my last day on earth-the beauty.  I wouldn't just want my immediate family though, if I could do anything I would bring every person that ever touched my life.  I would bring my cousins, aunts and uncles, grandparents, neighbors, teachers, and friends. I have created really special bonds with so many people, and I would want to spend my last day with all of them just laughing and talking and looking at the sparkling blue water surrounding the boat.  I would obviously want my dog, Riley there too! I love my RiRi. I would want to watch all of the old disney movies that warm my heart to this day, and the Wizard of Oz, too.  I would also want to take some time to laugh until I cry at my old home videos, they are actually priceless. I would also work time in the day to go to Germany and Ireland, two places that I have very strong family history.  Before I die I want to walk to same streets that my ancestors walked, and see the exact same sunsets they saw.  The most important thing though, would be to get as much time in with my family as I could.  They drive me absolutely NUTTY sometimes, but I love everyone in my life so much, that I would want everyone there. Even Dave.

Villanelle

Automatic strides to sprint through the day.
Feeling hopeless and weak.
Running out of options, now it's time to pray.

Looking out the window, the whole world has turned grey.
No different than the scenery, the future looks bleak.
Automatic strides to sprint through the day.

There's a difference between growing up, and losing the urge to play.
Now admitting it's not a phase, not an unusual streak.
Running out of options, now it's time to pray.

So close to touching happiness, if it's summer then I'm May.
I need to be carried back to reality, maybe I do need a slap across the cheek.
Automatic strides to sprint through the day.

Surprising myself with the strength and will to stay.
Hoping the future brings more happiness, what I'd give for just one peek.
Running out of options, now it's time to pray.

Identical to a broken wire, ending with a fray.
A purpose and a genuine smile is really all that I seek.
Automatic strides to sprint through the day.
Running out of options, now it's time to pray.

daily journal 3-3-11

Top ten best/most memorable/funniest moments of my life
1. making LDT
2.dance competitions
3.first varsity lacrosse game
4.laughing until I cried at Ace Ventura
5.getting Riley
6.playing with Michael & Corey
7.the time I took 3 vicodin
8. teaching myself to play the titanic theme song on the piano
9. laughing hysterically with veronica, sammy, and lauren
10.a prairie home companion filming/premiere

Etheree

Girl.
Timid
little girl.
Adoration
for her big brothers.
They love and entertain,
care for, and always protect.
Grown up now, things are different.
Passing through all the stages of life.
Carefree days are gone, memories remain.

Tears well up, but I've learned to hold them back.
Didn't realize what I had back then.
Like a projector on repeat,
the images play for me.
Never laughing harder
than when they were here.
Promise me we
will not change.
Always
young.

Daily Journal 3-2-11

How ridiculous I was as pirate having a sword fight with my sister and cousin. A bunch of silly little kids, we ran around the house with swords in our right hands and hooks as our left hands.  As goofy as we may have looked, we took ourselves very seriously.  Narrowly escaping the giant octopus or evil shark, the biggest insult to a fellow pirate was making them walk the plank.  "But I don't want to get drenched!" Katie would shout at me.  We would forget about it and move back through the house as our fight became more in-depth and technical.  We would stop for a quick twist before our swords clashed together again, or to take a flying leap off the couch to fly like Peter Pan. My hook hand got in the way, but it was only fair because I was oldest. Out through the front door and down the driveway, our epic battles didn't end in death or a truce like in the movies.  They always ended with an 'I'm tired. Can we go have lunch now?'

Acrostic Poetry

Just one word will never sum me up.
Early mornings have always been a problem.
Sensitive sometimes.
Strong always.
If I love you, I make sure you know.
Childhood made me who I am, and will continue to shape me forever.
A constant rush of life.

Memories are held close to my heart.
August 14th, 2003 never should have happened.
Realistic, but composed 100% of faith.
If you mess with the bull, you get the horns, so don't provoke me.
Everything happens for a reason, I have to believe that.

Much of what I have learned, I learned the hard way.
Infinitely grateful for the life God gave me.
Look at how far I have come, and tell me I shouldn't be proud.
Living happily ever after is what I aim for.
Sometimes going through the dark is what makes you appreciate the light.

Daily Journal 3-1-11

If I had my own government, the first thing I would do is make harsher punishments for animal abuse.  Anyone found guilty would be put through what that innocent and defensless animal was put through, and then jailed for the rest of their life.  It is extremely harsh, I know, but so is abusing a poor little animal. I would also clean up the foster care and parentless child situation.  I would do whatever I could to lower the amount of children who don't have a good home, and I would put each foster and adoptive family through extensive testing to make sure they deserved the chance to raise the child.  I also think I would require a certain amount of monetary or time donation to charities from each family per year.  I would also try to eliminate stereotypes.  So many people don't do things that they enjoy because they think they aren't supposed to.  If the kid who is in every single honors class wants to try-out for football, he should be able to.  Regardless of how good he may or may not be, the fact that people might judge him shouldn't keep him from doing something that makes him happy. It isn't fair that we look at someone and label them right off the bat, because no two people are alike.  Someone may dress completely different from me, but we could have identical life goals and morals, and be able to carry on a great conversation.  Isn't that what having friends is all about? It is true that I could know someone who dresses like me and wears their hair the same way I do, but they could be a mean-spirited person and have no personality.  Why would I want a friend like that? Basically, if I were in charge of things I would try to transform the government into a portal for people to use to become the best individuals they can be.